Social stress makes me write this

[NoElement]

There is an near impossibility that i find an partner. Why? Because im to demanding? Probably.

Anyway, thank you everyone for your kind words! And in some cases tough love~

[Calvin]

You’re like my brother who passed away a week ago coz of heart attack. You’re exactly like him… Take care of yourself… Be thankful of what you have… I believe some of us created with such situation as yours. I did seek power sometimes beforehand but look what happened to us… Love your family as you can… show affection to them like no tomorrow. Don’t make them sad as result of your situation.

I would have preferred that i didn’t had to write this, but i have no clue where else i could disburden myself. I don’t know any forum or place or even person where i could talk or write to. I am fully aware that this textwall will sound whiny, and that no one will believe me, but the pressure makes me unable to do anything else.

Now, that might sound like an rather normal issue for an normal person. However, i’m an isolated, introverted and unemployed individual. Constant mobbing and lack of understanding for what i do, from my parents and anyone else, together with no friends, makes my situation that much harder. And while i have an “advanced technical certificate” (i hope that’s the right translation from “Fachhochschulreife”) i wasn’t able to get an apprenticeship in my region (i live in the relative countryside), nor did i find an college with an study that worked for me. So, i can officially only pursue low-quality work, and while im healthy, i’m constantly on the Computer, so i don’t have the body build or the mindset for prolonged hard and/or simple work. Me being highly introverted also makes it impossible to work with clients.

This sadness is killing me… The passion for everything lost… It feels like floating when the doctor said he’s gone… To my brother who’s now on the way for sure to heaven. I love you brother… I know you know it. Till we meet again to play games again…

[itzNiko]

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