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I've got a confession TwT

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#1

12 years ago I went through a 3 year weeb phase. During those 3 years I:

  • Said konnichiwa, desu, kawaii, sugoi and attached -chan and -san and -kun to people’s names.
  • Cosplayed.
  • Regarded every single anime ever made as the best thing ever while I spit on anything that didn’t come from Japan.
  • Studied Japanese and bought several study books lol.
  • Had a room filled with random anime collectables and dvd boxsets.
  • Attempted to make AMVs while watching AMVs nonstop on YouTube.
  • Created cheesy photoshop anime content and plastered it all over anime forums I used to post on.
  • Spent the entirety of my graphic design degree drawing anime art and making ALL of my assigned projects incorporate anime art even if it didn’t make sense to the target audience of my advertisement. (Teacher even got annoyed by it lol)

… they were dark times. If I could go back in time and slap myself in the face to make me not go through with it, I would. I would go back in time and uninstall the internet just to take back this weeb past of mine.

I just had to get that off my chest… some things you can never take back no matter how hard you try. It is a stain on my existence that will follow me to my grave.

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#2

Plot-twist: You’re still a weeb.

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#4

There’s nothing to regret. You just need to evolve.
Shed that weeb shell and evolve into an Otaku.

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#5

-I still say kawaii, sugoi from time to time

  • I would have cosplayed, but am too shy and my resources has always been limited…
  • I have japan in a hugely high-esteem, but I always try to keep a balance and neutral…
    -Learned some Japanese by myself and never had the money to buy study books. (luckily the internet exist)
  • the only anime related stuff I ever had was the music I recorded into my cellphone
  • AI still spend lot of time watching AMVs nonstop on YouTube.
  • Created crazy MSpaint anime content and plastered it all over forums I used to post on.
  • Drawing anime and stuff on class… what’s new?_?

Every day I couldn’t watch Anime or cartoons to make me laugh and smile cause I was too scare and crying…

those are dark times…

If I could go back in time and slap myself in the face to make me not go through with it, I wouldn’t… Play to the end and read all well

I just had to get that off my chest indeed…

Even if I could time-travel, things cant be take back no matter how hard you try. It is a part of my existence that will follow me to my grave and beyond…

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#6

Well, it’s all in the past now.
And the past is what makes you you today. You think that those years were embarrassing and you wish you could erase it (or some part of it at least) but there were experiences that makes you who you are; if you didn’t go through all of this, you might not be here, today, on the forum, who knows.

And well, studying Japanese can be helpful so if you succeeded, it is one more language you can speak now?

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#7

Weellp as everyone said above it is past now, and see the good part: you got a new language, that’s great at least in my point of view.

What made you realize that you were wasting time in being a weeb tho?

I mean in my case i just realized that i was being a kid,and many times acting like anime girl was wrong. I cosplayed like two or three times but just was because i really like the main character personality of that anime and somehow i felt myself in that charcter

That doesn’t change the fact that i still use emojis or watch anime and read manga

Anyways, it is past right?

P.S i love your toxic (somehow) and lovely way to be , for real

#8

Gonna need to see those cosplays…

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#9

Hey, it’s a phase for a reason. :stuck_out_tongue: Experiences will be experiences, good or bad, and it’s just like folks have said: it’s contributed to how you’ve come to be the person you are today.

Though honestly, I wouldn’t mind learning Japanese. I’d get to play all the Japanese-only video games I want (mwahaha). It’s also pretty great to know another language as a whole anyway.

In my case, I’m pretty sure I’d humiliate myself if I showed the way I used to text several years ago. Sticky caps, urk. And I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t mind strangling younger me for roleplaying some characters wrong, haha. Kawaii uguu desu etc etc. To sum it up in a few words.

/brb banging head on wall

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#10

I’ve got a confession to make~

oh where am I

#11

We all have strong cringe phases we went through when we were younger, I think. I wasn’t interested in anime until my teens, but I didn’t get too into it during those days. These days I’ll typically just watch Jojo on Fridays (which today’s episode should be out soon, now that I think about it).

However, I’ve contemplated living in Japan, and this is probably just because I feel out of place in the United States (it has nothing to do with anime or video games). Of course, a foreigner will always be considered a foreigner when living in Japan (it doesn’t matter if they’ve been there for 30 years), and nothing can change that. My contemplation for even considering to move there is that I’d prefer the hive mind mentality and conformity over the strong expression of individuality that is present in this country–for me, this is somewhat overwhelming.

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#12

Is it okay to call you “FlanFlan-chan” then ? (It sounds like a dumb idol pop song <3)

[quote=“FlanFlan, post:1, topic:307224, full:true”]Regarded every single anime ever made as the best thing ever while I spit on anything that didn’t come from Japan.
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Bible Black too ?

#13

Only like… 3, maybe 4? of those things could even be considered “weeb”, but ok.

#14

It’s a better social system if you actually fit in with the hive-mind mentality because it cuts back greatly on drama. There’s been cases of teenage suicides due to relentless bullying related to some teens not fitting in with the hive-mind structure so it has its downside for sure. Here the problem is everyone is an individual and expresses themselves differently, but not everyone is tolerant of people who are different which creates a lot of senseless drama that tends to drag down entire communities.

I still don’t actually consider myself a weeb since everything on that checklist I don’t do anything. Except I do still obsess over anime art and post it everywhere I can if it fits in with the topic lol.

Don’t really watch anime anymore since the lewd culture started taking over. I have difficulty taking a story seriously when it’s plastered with lewdness so it’s made my enjoyment of anime go down as a result of this.

People pointing out how cringy I was being actually made me start to look at it. I was in an anime community and people still cringing over the strong weeb in me. Eventually learned how to be an “anime fan” without having to weeb it up… over time I started appreciating things that weren’t anime lol.

I can act toxic but I can calm myself down in certain situations if I think it’s gone too far. If someone blatently attacks me in a thread I will derail it to have an argument with them. I still weeb up the forums with sarcastic picture replies that don’t address what the OP was talking about but some things can’t be helped lol.

Implying I didn’t burn them in a bonfire while doing some exotic dance said to banish evil spirits. I wasn’t even cosplaying to go out to social events I was sitting in my room dressed up LOL.

I roleplayed Flandre, Youmu and Cirno for a couple years which is what got me so hooked on Touhou, getting so involved in the story and characters made me love them a lot. I still have a great appreciation for roleplay and it’s a shame it’ll never happen with Tree of Chat Filter.

Took a wrong turn at the “Load a Loli” thread? :stuck_out_tongue:

Those were the good old days. Before that god awful Boku no Pico became the “troll” hentai to tell people to watch, it was Bible Black. With the word Bible in it people were successfully trolling religious people into thinking it was a religious anime. Seriously horrible lmao.

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#15

Yeah, you’re definitely right about that. I have a Japanese pen-pal I’ve been communicating with for six years now and the thing that bothers her the most is that she can rarely be herself or express herself openly to others (likely due to the barriers created by honne and tatemae). However, she is extremely individualistic compared to the average Japanese person. Anyway, like you said, the bullying is very prevalent for those that don’t fit in.

When it comes to drama, I absolutely can’t stand it (not even in movies or TV).

Here is an interesting documentary I saw a long time ago about the differences between eastern and western thinking; whether it is valid or not, I don’t know, but it is interesting nonetheless.

I feel the same way as well. Many studios lowered the bar after noticing how easily they could make money by catering to the otaku (rather than focusing on story or character development).

#16

This right here. I went through weeb very early (so if you ask me for anime info, you’re mostly gonna get fuzzy memories of 90s anime), goth (thank God that didn’t last long, I cried cause I felt everyone stared at me QQ I was like 13), hood (bad attempt at fitting in with my community… lkasjjdjjajsd), and finally the whole, open minded, drugs, sex, rock n’ roll ■■■■ for years. While I have my regrets, much of it cringe worthy, I had a lot of fun and it definitely makes me some what who I am today. However I seen people not come out of my scene in one piece or even alive. I’d say being a weeb is the smarter culture to get into any day, unless you know… You’re like Jeffrey Dahmer vore anime people. Then we may need to have a talk. o.o

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#17

I think, the saddest part about BB… was when I discovered that my friends who studied Japanese didn’t know about it. Of course with my friend we made them watch it during one of the girls’ birthday, but it truly was a sad discovery.

I agree for the lewdness in anime~
I normally don’t mind if they put some because it goes with the scene/moment, but the problem is fanservice.
That woman already has a tight uniform and a mini-skirt even though she’s a soldier, why do they feel the need to always show her panties too ?

@Takemi
I think Japan might be too “extreme” on that. Maybe you could visit some Northern European countries, like the Scandinavian ones. They usually have a good mix of both.
In Japan it’s tough because, even if you’re not particularly individualistic, they don’t truly speak their mind. A lot of people I know there (Japanese or not) say how it’s a shame that basically everybody is an “hypocrite”, as in they don’t truly say what they think. It also makes it difficult to have real friends.
The only thing they aren’t shy about is the bullying XD

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#18

When I studied Chinese I met a few Chinese people who actually said this exact thing. They said they hated their culture because everyone was “Fake” and said they appreciated western culture more because everyone seems so “Honest about themselves” so they were putting more effort into learning English to meet more western people. Although I still think it isn’t exactly ‘easy’ to find a real friend here either. People here still put on a good act to hide certain things about themselves when they are NOT anonymous on the internet.

If you really pay attention you will see conformity in western culture as well it just isn’t as big a thing as it is in Asian cultures.

#19

JP social system actually really weirds me out. There’s a reason why they seem so obsessed with high school and why their suicide rates are so high. Plus the standards for women are not fun, and in reflection of that, the standards for men are probably not fun either.

But more on topic, danut worry. I was a weaboo and still am a weaboo, even though I’m asian pfftahah. When I was like 9-10 years old I used “Nya” as a pen-name online, sung japanese songs outside of the home (see: at school), and used emojis and stuff like “=w=” quite a bit. I remember there was an actual japanese girl at school and I would share with her my goddamned anime songs (SEE: HIGURASHI. I SHOWED HIGURASHI TO A GIRL MY AGE, AKA ELEMENTARY-MIDDLE SCHOOL BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS NORMAL) and she was probably soooo weirded out.

I thankfully don’t have too many cringe memories but this was a uh, striking period of my life. I had my phases pretty early so it’s a blessing that people don’t think it’s super weird lmao.

Still a fucken weaboo though. Still watch my anime, still draw anime. uhh yeah that’s about it, weebus here

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#20

Just want to nitpick at this a bit to tell you that Higurashi is an amazing anime and I’m due to rewatch it. I actually trolled a friend of mine. You know how the first episode of Higurashi it starts off showing insane Keiichi with a bat and stuff? Well I video edited that out of the first episode and had my friend watch it telling her it was a cute slice of life school anime.

Boy was she mortified… especially since she hates horror LOL

#It’s so kawaii uguu~

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#21

oh my god, HAHAHA. IT’S SO MISLEADING. it goes from 0-holy fucking shit so fast, I’d love to see a cut version of it.

Good anime though, yeah. The final arc smashed my soul and shoved it back together so many times jfc

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