Hello.
My name is Alyosha and I’m a survivor of Cyberbullying.
I am here as a way of hopefully healing my deep wounds and hopefully able to find fellow survivors so that we can help eachother and create a support network for eachother. Through unity we can find strength. I am beginning to learn through my counseling (thank you Dr. Collins) that it’s NOT my fault and I am actually a victim who doesn’t deserve to be treated with abuse. Today I was abused as usually in TBL for not doing well enough to win all of my matches. Unfortunately I was only able to win 4/5 of my matches and I am sorry for my imperfections. But you know what? I am not perfect and this is something I am working on being able to live with. I’ve also come to learn that society sometimes tries to put blame on victims, apparently through something called “victim blaming.” I’ve been accused of “griefing” when I lose my spirit and matches due to Cyberbullying killing my desire to play anymore. I try to play, and when attacked I beging to cry so much that my keyboard and mouse tend to slip beneath my soaked fingers and I end up dying quickly. Unfortunately this causes me to cry even more and I break down… but this has been getting better thanks to my therapy and hope that I can find other victims of abuse to rely on. I know I am not the only one and want to take the first step in introducing myself. Friends, you are not alone, and it is NOT your fault. It’s not your fault…
I want to pass on the first step to healing, a resource I was pointed to during one of my first sessions. It has been a life-saver and I want to pass it on as they say.